I'm up and down. I'm having small victories and then my dumb self looks around at other people's $700 bicycles for sale. Posts about 1 hour swim workouts, blah, blah, blah, blah. I am NOT getting ahead of myself. I am not setting my sight on other people's goals. I am working on where I AM AT. Working with MY BUDGET. If someone wants to donate a $700 bike to me that'd be great, but I don't even know how ride my $35 bike and I refuse to let myself jump into the money/competition game. I got 8 kids that go to Catholic schools. I know better than going there. This money thing has been probably the biggest deterrent from me for jumping into triathlons. I don't have endless supplies to be throwing around on my hobbies. Most people have no idea how much time, resources, energy, and money my kids take to raise and I, today am going to keep my focus on me and who I am and what I want.
So today, working on those small victories. Not comparing myself to others and making steps forward. I keep having to repeat this same thing over and over and over again.
I know where I'm at. I know I can accomplish big things. I know it takes patience. I know that I have persistence and determination and I know I can accomplish anything I set my mind to. NOT GOING TO START THE COMPARING GAME OR THE KEEPING UP WITH THE JONES.
