Sunday, April 22, 2018

Tri-ing. Seriously thinking about a triathlon this year

I have no idea what the hell I am doing with this one, but it's on my radar. I need a bike. I'm going to get one. I am going to ride one. I am more nervous about the bike than the swimming. Biking is like driving and I'm not a good driver. I hate driving and I haven't rode a bike since I was 15, but I really want to do this. I think it'd be good to have a new goal to focus on. I think it would help me not be anxious about my running. A good distraction. I think..... I just don't know how I think I'm going to do it all.

Anyhow, I found two possible races to look at Eagle Lake Triathlon or the one I'm really thinking about mostly because it's further away Barron Lake Triathlon.

These are just ideas in my little brain. I'm not committed yet. Can't commit without a bike and being sure I still know how to ride one. I have seriously lost my marbles.

Saturday, April 21, 2018

Don't post blog posts when you're drinking

Oops. Oh well. I plan to be the girl that takes all of your damn excuses away. I mean hell, 8 kids, work full time, run a marathon. I call that badass. Could be the wine talking. Oh well. I'm pretty damn focused on two goals.

1. Qualify for Boston and by Boston I mean the damn marathon which is uh, 26.2 freaking miles for all the non-runners that might read my bullshit. So in my buzzed state (not drunk I promise). Only had 2 glasses and I can still type besides a friend posted an article which I vaguely read that says something like a research study said you can write better when you're buzzed. Just not sure if you can read better so I might have to go read that. Anywhoooooo, since I turn 45 this year I think this is a fantastic time to chase this goal even if I am running freaking 13 minute stupid miles! Ugh. Boo.

For 2019 women's qualifying time is 45-49  3hrs 55min 00sec

I think I can do it! I really do. I mean I got my freaking work cut out for me, but yes, I think I can. Posting my stupid PRs just so I can feel better about myself because this stupid freaking 3 hour half marathon crap is getting old.
Okay, bucket list number 2 is a stupid triathlon which I haven't rode a bike and look hell I can actually spell it right. Woot. Last time I'm off and typing ROAD like an idiot. Uh, no, I know how to spell. Also, while I'm at it because I got some serious pent up energy. I am not an idiot. I am hyperactive yes, talk a lot, and somewhat of a spaz, but I'm actually a damn good student and always at the top of my class. Anyhow, focus. Bucket list triathlon, Boston is the primary goal though.

So everyone is clear, I am probably going to become an absolute lunatic in the next 8 weeks because I am very, very focused on running my first marathon in I think 5 years which makes me sad, but Andrew and my nursing degree were worth it.

Delete, delete, delete, delete . Everyone does not need to read my bullshit. Anyway this was therapeutic for me. Bam, Boston it is. I think the secret to success to running Boston is to drink wine. There! See you speedy folks in Boston in 2020 because I'm going. (Might have to find a charity to run for, but that's my goal and I'm sticking to it.)

Monday, April 9, 2018

The usual bullshit

Haven't blogged in forever, but mostly putting this here so everybody doesn't have to read my crap on FB. Feeling this I don't belong here feeling as I post in one of my running groups. Feeling extremely discouraged even though I'm putting on my best I'm a badass face. I saved a screenshot of my long run from Sunday and trying to convince myself that this will be a testament at some point of how far I've come. Most of me believes I can get there again. I'm just disgusted about how long I think it's going to take. Anyhow for today just needed to spill all of this somewhere. I don't want to be the slow runner, the fat runner, the one that everyone's cheering at the end of the race. I get it. I do it to, but I don't want that to be me. I don't care if I'm 'fast' right anymore. All I want is 10 min/ miles. That's it! Ugh. Okay that's it for today. Adding my screenshot to this post. Hoping I'm right that this will be meaningful one day.

Friday, March 3, 2017

New month, new goals, March is in like a lion!

Okay, so February was a wash. Didn't meet a single one of my goals. Moving forward. Sometimes you just gotta keep on tweaking those goals and plans until you find something that works. I still think I can meet the goals I set for the year (except maybe the weight workouts because it's just not that important to me).

February miles - 83
Push ups - 740
Leg raises - 740
Squats - 770
Weights - 1
Diet - 16 days were on track

Goals for March 

Goal #1 - Big focus - me and my binge eating. Huge problems there and when this gets out of control everything else goes with it. When I'm stressed or super tired I eat. So setting a goal for no binge eating for the month. Scheduled cheat days 4 for the month, but I really would like to see none of them turn into binges.

Goal #2 - Push ups, leg raises, and squats - 1000 for the month. Bring it! I am SURE I can make this goal.

Goal #3 - 100 miles or better. Setting this one a little lower. I need to have some successes and damn it March is going to be a good month.

Now, I'm also switching things up and setting weekly goals and giving myself rewards at the end of the week because I keep screwing up the monthly goals and determined to have some successes and positives. Weekly goals seem much more achievable.

For this week from Friday to next Friday

3 sets of 100 push ups, squats, and leg raises (or better)
4 runs with 2 being 7 miles or better
No binge eating

if I meet these goals I'm buying a gift card to Regis salons. I want my hair done and I figure instead of aiming for a monthly goal of getting my hair done I'd put $25 on a gift card each week I'm successful. At least this way I will eventually get my hair done. I'm also buying myself my darn Supernatural t-shift for February because I want to wear it to the gym.

Friday, February 3, 2017

January 2017 wrap up

I didn't post any specific goals for January. I was aiming for 100 miles though. Didn't quite hit the mark, but 95 was pretty close so I'll take it. Fell way off on weight training. That's been my downfall for quite a while. Never enough time for everything. Oh well, It's still better than December so I'm moving in the right direction.

Miles - 95
Push ups - 490
Squats - 490
Leg raises - 490
Weight workouts - only 2

Sunday, January 29, 2017

Done screwing around with this: Race report, Ramblings, Goals, and Supernatural stuff

This will be long-winded. Sorry, not sorry, because pretty much anyone that knows me knows I talk to damn much so I can't help myself. I'll try and break this up in sections so it's more tolerable. Plus, I really don't care if anyone reads this. I started my blog back up for my own personal motivation. That's it.

Race Report

Uh, yeah that sucked! I mean it was fun though and I'd totally do it again, just not doing the DFL part again. I'm done with that. I apparently didn't follow the directions or read anything on the website when I registered. Totally missed (didn't realize it until I was home either) that there was a 2 hour time limit on the first race. Oops. I clearly was not the only one that missed that part because there was at least a handful of people way over 2 hours. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you to the race directors and other runners for being supportive and nice and not making me feel like a complete idiot and still letting me finish in spite of the piss poor shape I'm in.

Start of race, lining up and I realize every single one of the runners except for maybe 1 or 2 look fast (and those 1 or 2 were men). At this point I realize I'm screwed. I said to the other runners at the start of the race I'm pretty sure I'm going to be last. I've never felt like that and it wasn't negative talk. I'm a good judge of my pace and my competition. I knew I was over my league. Oh well. I was there and I'm not a quitter. Start lap one (1/4 mile track) and get lapped by 2 people before I even get around the first lap. I realize at the end of the first lap I was last. No biggie I'm always slow to warm up. They have a big screen up flashing the place of runners so get to the first lap and confirm I'm last.

Super nice. I got to see that about 37 more times. Nothing more encouraging than seeing last place every.single.time. Thanks for that. It's funny though. I was okay with it. I just thought well I can check that off my list of things to worry about. I've never been DFL before, someone's got to do it. Oh well, keep moving.

About lab 30 though I'll have to be honest first time I ever thought of quitting a race. It was just really discouraging knowing I was not even going to finish in 2:30. I wasn't discouraged about being last. Who cares, but I was discouraged realizing I was running a 12 min pace. I thought I could do better than that.

Anyhow, finished and that's all the thoughts I have on this race. I'm going to run this race again and I think I can PR a half there if I was better trained. Maybe next year.


Trying really hard to put blinders on and stay focused. A 2:30 hour finish means that I am at best looking at a 5 hour marathon with where I am at right now. I have run a 5 hour + marathon before twice. It is not fun. I don't know mentally if I'm up to going over 5 hours again. Therefore the blinders. I'm going to have to block that out of my head in order to get to the starting line. Let me just tell you as an experienced runner now. A 5 hour marathon is harder than a 4 hour one. (Not that I've run a 4 hour one yet, but close enough.) So with that I'm pissed off and going to do my best to get myself in at least better than 5 hour shape because I am just sick of this 12 minute pace crap. I know I can do better.

Goals for February

I have thirty pounds to lose! Eak. Maybe 25 if I'm nice to myself, but that right there is probably number 1 thing holding me back. The scale is not my friend and it keeps messing with my mojo so this is on my goal list for February.

#1 goal - NO stepping on the scale until March 1.
#2 goal - 120 miles for the month
#3 goal - Run 23 days out of the month
#4 goal - Eat healthy 23 days out of the month

The rest of the goals are more fluid. Just keeping up with my exercise spreadsheet and do better on all my goals this month than last month

Supernatural Stuff

As some of you may notice I have a new Supernatural (the TV show) obsession. I am like 7 years behind now. (I've watched 4 seasons already this year. Maybe I started in December.) I will admit to having a mild crush on Jared Padelecki. I'm sure he'd be thrilled to know a mom (albeit a Supermom) to 8 has a crush. He's second hottest guy besides my husband. Girls gotta be faithful to have 8 kids. Anywhooo so I made myself a couple Supernatural running deals to give me a bit of motivation. One if I meet ALL of my goals I am buying me this t-shirt

And you'll likely get a selfie. Other Supernatural related goal - My daughter came up with this on my drive to the hotel for the race. She said I could watch my show because I got my run in for the day. So, I think I'll go with that. If I get my run in for the day, then I can watch my show and no watching it until I get my run in for the day. So that's it. My long winded self.

Saturday, January 14, 2017

Try try again

Dang I'm tired of that being my mantra. I can't seem to stay on track for as long as I want. I am really struggling with sleep. Working nights, honestly working period, is tough. That and daycare so I can run during the winter months.  Ugh. Enough whining.

I added healthy eating to my spreadsheet and a goal for 300 days out of the year eating healthy. Today is a new day. I'm going to get something done to knock off my goals for the year. Tracking miles has been a great tool for me to be successful so hoping that adding my diet to my spreadsheet will do the same. Sometimes it helps to see the big picture to see how many days you are doing right versus dwell on the wrong days. Not much else to write for today. Just writing something to keep this blog active (for myself, don't care if anyone else reads it... don't care if you do read it either. I don't put anything in writing and post it on the web unless I'm comfortable with my husband, my children, my grandmother, my coworkers, or anyone else that could stumble across it reading it.)